Tantrums

As a child, I was definitely one to throw tantrums ... and not just little ones. I would basically sit on the floor and pound my hands and feet until someone listened. Of course, initially people reacted and I would get what I wanted, but soon - people stopped reacting, and I was basically yelling and screaming in empty space, making a fool of myself.

I sometimes wonder if my posts are reminiscent of my tantrums. I wonder, does anyone really pay attention to this blog. Actually, I don't wonder - I know who reads, and who reacts, but maybe no one's paying attention. I'm just another voice, in an ocean of yelling and screaming. Maybe I'm making a fool of myself, vaulting my views into cyberspace. I suppose that was the point - to air my views regardless of whether anyone can actually hear them. [if a tree falls in the middle of an empty forest, and no one's around - did it make a sound?]

Sometimes you just want to yell out and make everyone listen to you - make everyone react, hop to your beat. But I realize that I won't always be able to shout out and make a stand, and maybe shouting isn't the most effective way to solicit a reaction. Every once in a while, and I guess this is the product of age, you just want to sit still and see whats happening around you. But other times you know that you just have to say something, and that its not right to stay quiet. Pick your battles so to speak.

I suppose I can fulfill both roles - as a blogger and inshaAllah a future attorney. The pen is mightier than the sword they say, I hope that I get a chance to put something worthwhile down in ink. Or alternatively, that my silence speaks volumes about my thoughts. Regardless, I think I might have to reassess the point of this blog - and whether it has a point, or should have a point at all ... [trails off into silent thought .... *sigh]