The harsh reality
Now, I'm not sure if I'm alone in this assessment, but here goes ... I spent a decent amount of time this weekend working on getting things straight with my classes in the library. By Sunday night, I thought I was doing ok, I had gotten the gist of it and would at least get through Monday. The one exception was Legal Process for which my preparation was borderline, and I figured I'd be confused. Alhamdullilah, Monday started out pretty well ... I was ontop of Contracts, and even stuck my hand up before the most trigger happy participant in the class could get his up for one question - AND I was right! whewwwww!
The day ended w/Crim - and I was on call, which is the reason why I spent most of Sunday preparing. Of course, right out of the gates - I'm called on, and the best response I could get out was - ummmmm. Prof E - gives me a break by saying, actually - lets not start there, and she asks a different question -- and I SWEAR - I KNEW THE ANSWER, but I started struggling thru my notes, flipping pages - basically making a complete fool of myself --- and I'm like I know I have it somewhere - and when I finally find it in my notes, I can't decipher my handwriting. My prof, and I really do love her - she's awesome, but she totally dissed me --- she said, well, it probably made sense when you were going over it on your couch. And I'm like - um, I SAT IN THE LIBRARY HASHING THIS OUT FOR 8 HOURS!!!!! what are you talkin about sittin' on my couch!!!!!!
Whats me point? Well, I know that inshaAllah this will all pan out, and this stuff will eventually make sense - at least I hope that it will, but I'm really struggling with two things.
(1) the up and down --- totally on the ball for two classes, and totally fallin off the other two. and then there's legal writing which just sucks in general.
(2) the sheer frustration of just not being able to figure out whats what and how to apply this stuff. I might spend two hours on a problem, and maybe figure it out ... only to have it thrown back in my face in class the next day.
I suppose the point of all of this is - Patience, and I guess perseverence. Faith. Focus. Any more?
On a more positive note - (1) I have rallied up some Va-peeps that can commiserate with me, and talk about how the 'burgh is stuck in the 80's (2) RAMADAN IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And none too soon!!
So, I sign off now w/a HUGE RAMDAN KAREEEEEEEEEEEEM!!!!!
Peace ...
The day ended w/Crim - and I was on call, which is the reason why I spent most of Sunday preparing. Of course, right out of the gates - I'm called on, and the best response I could get out was - ummmmm. Prof E - gives me a break by saying, actually - lets not start there, and she asks a different question -- and I SWEAR - I KNEW THE ANSWER, but I started struggling thru my notes, flipping pages - basically making a complete fool of myself --- and I'm like I know I have it somewhere - and when I finally find it in my notes, I can't decipher my handwriting. My prof, and I really do love her - she's awesome, but she totally dissed me --- she said, well, it probably made sense when you were going over it on your couch. And I'm like - um, I SAT IN THE LIBRARY HASHING THIS OUT FOR 8 HOURS!!!!! what are you talkin about sittin' on my couch!!!!!!
Whats me point? Well, I know that inshaAllah this will all pan out, and this stuff will eventually make sense - at least I hope that it will, but I'm really struggling with two things.
(1) the up and down --- totally on the ball for two classes, and totally fallin off the other two. and then there's legal writing which just sucks in general.
(2) the sheer frustration of just not being able to figure out whats what and how to apply this stuff. I might spend two hours on a problem, and maybe figure it out ... only to have it thrown back in my face in class the next day.
I suppose the point of all of this is - Patience, and I guess perseverence. Faith. Focus. Any more?
On a more positive note - (1) I have rallied up some Va-peeps that can commiserate with me, and talk about how the 'burgh is stuck in the 80's (2) RAMADAN IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And none too soon!!
So, I sign off now w/a HUGE RAMDAN KAREEEEEEEEEEEEM!!!!!
Peace ...
posted by zai5h at Monday, October 03, 2005
1 Comments:
I agree. You can prepare all you want and the prof will find the one part of the opinion that you happened to miss or not understand. I don't know how they do it.
I got roughed up a bit when I was called on in contracts, and I was pretty well prepared for once (I usually lag behind a little in that class). It's frustrating, but it's okay. I know we all want to seem smart in class, but participation doesn't count for anything!
-B
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