rough week
Law school has gotten exponentially more intense in the last week. It was tough the first week just becuase I was settling in and dealing wiht some major homesickness battles ... but classes were good, I knew what was going on, etc.
Now ... I just don't know. I'm fighting an internal battle ... one minute, I'm comfortable with the amount of work I've put into the reading, I'm prepared for class, I can take this one day at a time, alhamdullilah all is good ... and literally the next second, I'm panicked - oh my God ... why am I not working, I'm so not prepared, I have no idea whats going on, I HAVE to do well on that exam ["that" exam is not for another 10 weeks] - but how am I gonna do it ... what if I don't make it ... oh man, I should quit RIGHT NOW ... put myself out of this misery.
I suppose as the semester wears on, the battles are going to intensify ... and that is where the real pressure of law school begins. I'm beginning to realize that Law School is tough, not just because of the amount of information that you have to absorb and be able to analyze, or because of the crazy type-A's that make you feel like you're a complete idiot --- but also because we all put SO much pressure on our selves ... or maybe thats just me. But I don't think that I'm the only one fighting this battle ... at least I hope I'm not. I think thats the real battle of law school -- keeping it objective, keeping the balance - not letting the crazies get to you, and more importantly, not letting yourself get to you.
Bottom line is - the first four months of law school are the most important four months of your law school career. Not because Fall grades are the only ones that people look at ... well, partly, but I think its more important because the fall is when you create the foundation ... how to read a case, how to analyze a case, how to write a brief, how to half-ass an answer when you're caught off guard, how not be caught off guard ever again ... it takes time, and for four months - heck, I can sacrifice sometime to figure this stuff out, right?
Sadly, its really not as easy as that ... but you know what, I'm sure as heck gonna try. So, wish me luck, PLEASE keep me in your duas ... send me encouraging emails, send me motivational emails ... yell at me if i try to keep an AIM conversation going for more than five or ten minutes ... remind me about why i'm doing this, and what i hope to achieve.
"Time is the gift that God has given us.
And what we do with it is the most
important challange that faces us."
- Hamza Yusuf [Purification of the Heart]
Now ... I just don't know. I'm fighting an internal battle ... one minute, I'm comfortable with the amount of work I've put into the reading, I'm prepared for class, I can take this one day at a time, alhamdullilah all is good ... and literally the next second, I'm panicked - oh my God ... why am I not working, I'm so not prepared, I have no idea whats going on, I HAVE to do well on that exam ["that" exam is not for another 10 weeks] - but how am I gonna do it ... what if I don't make it ... oh man, I should quit RIGHT NOW ... put myself out of this misery.
I suppose as the semester wears on, the battles are going to intensify ... and that is where the real pressure of law school begins. I'm beginning to realize that Law School is tough, not just because of the amount of information that you have to absorb and be able to analyze, or because of the crazy type-A's that make you feel like you're a complete idiot --- but also because we all put SO much pressure on our selves ... or maybe thats just me. But I don't think that I'm the only one fighting this battle ... at least I hope I'm not. I think thats the real battle of law school -- keeping it objective, keeping the balance - not letting the crazies get to you, and more importantly, not letting yourself get to you.
Bottom line is - the first four months of law school are the most important four months of your law school career. Not because Fall grades are the only ones that people look at ... well, partly, but I think its more important because the fall is when you create the foundation ... how to read a case, how to analyze a case, how to write a brief, how to half-ass an answer when you're caught off guard, how not be caught off guard ever again ... it takes time, and for four months - heck, I can sacrifice sometime to figure this stuff out, right?
Sadly, its really not as easy as that ... but you know what, I'm sure as heck gonna try. So, wish me luck, PLEASE keep me in your duas ... send me encouraging emails, send me motivational emails ... yell at me if i try to keep an AIM conversation going for more than five or ten minutes ... remind me about why i'm doing this, and what i hope to achieve.
"Time is the gift that God has given us.
And what we do with it is the most
important challange that faces us."
- Hamza Yusuf [Purification of the Heart]
posted by zai5h at Sunday, September 25, 2005
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